In Between Worlds

If I were taking this survey, I check Married. Don't worry about that. I just have felt this strange feeling of friendships in my life lately, so I decided to write my feelings about it. 

I love my friends. I love that I have such great friends. I love that I have many friends. Here's the thing: the friends I have that have gotten married seem distant and older than Craig and I. I don't have anything to talk to them about. I feel awkward when I try to bring up conversation. It's forced. Then, there's my single friends. I feel comfortable with them, much more than most married friends, but there are still moments with them that are awkward. They don't understand being married or what priorities come with that to the full extent. 

So, here are Craig and myself. We are in this world in between the two worlds. We don't feel like married "grown ups," but we certainly aren't single. 

Then, there are my two very best friends: Jessi and Shannon. Shannon leaves on her mission to Florida tomorrow. Jessi leaves to Georgia in 2 months. The two girls I really, really related and felt 100% myself with are leaving. I look up to them so much. I love them with all of me. I didn't realize it-that it is really hard for me. I don't make close friends like them so easily. I have only had few girl friends in my entire life. I have great guy friends, but there is something different about having your best friend-the girl who understands you and how you feel. It's in an extremely important relationship for a woman. Even more importantly is when you find a friend, like Jessi, who gives you advice on everything because she's done it first. Marriage, babies, everything. She has always been my go-to gal. Yes, I know, phone call away, yata yata. It's not the same. 

I am just frustrated I guess. I love my friends, like I said before. I cherish each and every one of you. I love Craig. I am grateful for him. I want to not have to choose between these "two worlds." Why I can't I fit in both worlds?